I hated my body for as long as I can remember. It didn't matter how active I was, all I saw was cellulite, fat and imperfections. My inner dialogue with myself was that of hatred & disgust. It was this illusion and distortion that actually led me to become overweight when I was a teenager. I was diagnosed with major depression and would binge eat, puke and take laxatives to try and have some sense of control. I had so much guilt and shame. So I rebelled and escaped. I drowned

Most of us grew up with a distorted image of ourselves, based around our external influences such as culture, family, friends, school, society, medias narratives, conditioning and programming. Eating disorders develop, distortion of what we actually look like when looking in the mirror occurs & mental health challenges form because we don’t see what the external world tells us is beautiful, normal or popular. For myself, I struggled with my weight, freckles, nose, cellulite,